:: update ::

guess it's time to update this blog
honestly, i have run out of peseverence to keep this up
hai
feel like tearing down this blog
many of the comments here
well
maybe
argh
nvr mind
things change so fast
people grow distant so fast
now i find myself wondering where it has all gone
no choice i suppose
make do with what i have
and well
hope i get through in one piece
i hope im not doing something stupid
again
i think i am actually
argh

God save me
from myself....

please help me sort out this mess,
this mess insided of me....

argh,
today forgot to bring my pt kit, hmm
thankfully Mr Ho was understanding
hmm
but it was still very sian watching ppl play softball from the sidelines
hmm
cant believe i forgot to pack it last night
i wonder why
actually i noe why
but thats for me to know
anyway
hmm
dunno lah
today has just been not wonderful so far
well
i guess i can thank God that im still alive hehe

i havent posted on this blog for some time,
in fact, i havent posted on my blogs for some time
not really free/ have been mugging in school
and ya
havent had much inspiration to blog, or maybe nothing much to say anymore
a blogger, is always, no matter to how small a degree, an exhibitionist,
writing about his or her personal life on the net
something people have access to
is a way to get ppl to read ur views
hmm
of course there are those who dont tell anyone their blog addresses,
and there are those who only tell close friends
and there are those who would like to make writeups on various topics easily available on the net.
honestly i didnt have such noble aspirations
most of the time i blogged to let other people see the parts of me i wanted to show them but maybe didnt dare to in real life
other times it was to vent pent up emotions,
but ya
now i guess there isnt much to say to those around me
maybe im learning to say it face to face
or maybe it doesnt matter that much wad ppl think of me
or at least
i dont really bother to feed ppl with wad i think anymore
well self expression is cool and all, but u dun need it to survive
well time i get on with surviving and worry less about literature,
to qualify my statement, hmm
well lousy self written literature....

instead of starting with the usual statement of how long its been since i blogged... although its kinda obvious
hmmm
well
this week has been hectic
kinda
aced a fmb test
but i screwed up a fma test
haha
excelling except in that which matters
wahahhaha
well
hmm
really falling behind in school work
behind in like 2/3 tutorials in each subject
im seriously contemplating dropping
also
hmm
hope my ct doesnt see my blog
hahaha
anyways
time to comment on my tutors
i shall make general positive and critical but constructive remarks
haha
most of them are nice
quirky but nice
Mr Wong-caring abit picky, at least i think so
epitome of metrosexuality, haha err
but ya
overall a cool guy
Miss Tan- professional cher, quite firm
but suprisingly super caring
Mrs Gay- hmm
kindly maybe not very able to transfer interest but well
she does care
and she knows what she is teaching
Mr Ong- a real nice guy, hmm
nice smile
good at what he does, but he can get abit out of point, but ya
he's cool
Miss Cher- stylish, good at english, very personal
which is great
hmm
Mr Louis Ho-kind, compassionate(permanant CIP)
he is great except maybe
abit absent minded,
hmm
cant really complain
all good
of course u will realise that i intentionally left out a couple of ppl
well
read in between the lines
i shall go by that age old edict
dont say anything if u have nothing good to say
haha
infer
would like to think of something nice
buts its quite hard
hahahah
maybe im quite anti authority, and well feel resentment easily
but
hmm
they cant really great human specimans if they dont impress me
well
i shant voice out my opinion
it appears it is not appreciated by those in charge, and in fact is something frowned upon..
well
in short
my two cents is worth nothing...
doesnt really matter
certain ppl seem to keep their jobs even though no-one really likes them
so i dun think i shall risk my education just to let off some steam

its been some time since i blogged here,
not like anybody reads here much
hahaha
anyways
ya
hmm
started jogging again
hehe
gonna keep my figure
haha
fat figure
anyways
today had chinese test
argh
stupid
retarded
hai
nvr mind
just fail lor
haha
wad else
hmm
west coast is a nice place
super huge playground
soooo fun
haha
whoo
lets see
school work is catching up with me
gonna become a mugger
hmm
honestly, sometimes got so much to go for that i dunno what its like to stone anymore
amazing right
hahaha
if ur looking for some profound post here
ur in the wrong place

:: fat ::

im growing fatter
argh
havent been going for morning runs
haha
cos of cmw
cos every morning too tired
hmm
better start soon
before i lose my figure
hahahahahah

:: cmw ::

cmw is over
hehe
ok lah
the result was quite good,
although i must say logistics was a nightmare
hmm
i dun wanna do log again lah
hai
getting ppl to help in logistics also like asking them for their lives like that
and there are some problems that could prove to threathen my well being in school
haha
but overall
i belief that cmw has touched the lives of the ppl in school
i pray that that effect will not just be temporary

:: tired ::

getting very very tired
and maybe abit sick
hai
next time i'll refuse to take part in any activities
its just so tiring
very tiring
so so tiring
hai
so much work
im starting to mess up already
argh
hope things manage to pull through
please God help